Magiros wrote:
Just to clarify Estara. There was not any specific outcome I was expecting.
I didn't think there was...
Magiros wrote:
However, when your left inside four walls to rp for 4 months because IC:ly your character is fucked up and simply can't move and the only one who can provide you answers/solution/conclusion leaves (Dm). Then there is nothing enjoyable at it. The only reaaon I finally got cured was that I Oocly decided if I need to suffer this shit theough, at least I could do it outside closer to possible rp, hence, ignoring one of the things hindering my toon so she could go out there.
This is more the part of your experience I was trying to focus on-- the frustration, the lack of available interaction, and possible responses to such. What you did was what I did, in a way. You took control of what may not have been the happiest/most ideal situation and built something out of it, still doing your best to keep it IC no matter how many OOC factors came into play. That is something to be proud of, something to be happy about and I think something to even see some freedom in. I'm trying to help you see the positive, powerful side of it instead of the bitter resentment.
Magiros wrote:
The fact is, there is nothing wrong with having bad things coming my way, but when there is nothing to get out of the experience or the Dm simply leaves leaving me at my own devices when their plot have caused such damage to my character that most simply dont want to interact with her to find solution and I cant find it on my own because the Dm is not there... Then I see problems in this. No exit of the situation, no roleplaying with others, even permadeath would be a way out of it if someone granted it.
I'm glad you can still see that bad things can be a growth experience, if it happens differently. Hopefully there will be a time when it happens that no matter how it happens, it can still be pretty awesome. YOU are the ultimate story writer. No DM has to give you permission to perma-kill your characters. You can request to perma-kill yourself, too.
Just like how I requested my own character's Fall!